Puzzeld

I'm not sure of the name to give,
or the way to feel or how I live,
I'm not sure of the road ahead,
I'm a little confused as I lay in bed,
I have so much going on right now,
What's the right thing to do I need to know somehow,
I have this man who claims he loves me,
But I don't feel the same chemistry,
I have another man when he touches me,
my body responds with such intensity,
I'm at a vulnerable place,
The anxiety playing with my heart rate,
He intrigues me, I want to hear his song,
My mind, body and soul not sure if they should string along,
I haven't been able to trust my own judgement for a while,
What If this is my only opportunity to smile,
He makes me feel desirable, seductive, and young,
This man has my heart sprung,
I've already gone so far with him there's no turning back,
his stare is like an aphrodisiac,
I could feel him undressing me with his eyes,
Dear god please tell me no lies,
I'm not putting any labels until I can comprehend,
For now I have a friend.