Free

 Had my shares of ups and downs,  Tired of always being on the ground,

I almost forgot what it feels like to smile,

Never truly happy only for awhile,

I no longer trust what is said to me,

I look beyond what the eye can’t see,

I’ve learnt that I can only depend on me,

Life is just a bitter mystery,

A universe in which we have no control,

I don’t play by the rules I have my own goals,

I’m a free spirited soul, I can’t be tamed nor controlled,

With age I’m a better version of me,

Phenomenal woman that’s me!!

Feelings

The way I feel for you scares me,

Im falling 10 steps ahead of where I should be,

It’s so easy to fall in love,

When from the rest you seem to be above,

I can’t seem to read you,

That shit scares the shit out of me in truth,

My expectations I don’t want to have any,

That shit hurts entirely,

I desire you to the core of my soul,

My feelings I can’t seem to control,

I want to be your everything,

To be your queen and you my king,

I want to be your only reason,

Forever not just a season!

Puzzeld

I'm not sure of the name to give,
or the way to feel or how I live,
I'm not sure of the road ahead,
I'm a little confused as I lay in bed,
I have so much going on right now,
What's the right thing to do I need to know somehow,
I have this man who claims he loves me,
But I don't feel the same chemistry,
I have another man when he touches me,
my body responds with such intensity,
I'm at a vulnerable place,
The anxiety playing with my heart rate,
He intrigues me, I want to hear his song,
My mind, body and soul not sure if they should string along,
I haven't been able to trust my own judgement for a while,
What If this is my only opportunity to smile,
He makes me feel desirable, seductive, and young,
This man has my heart sprung,
I've already gone so far with him there's no turning back,
his stare is like an aphrodisiac,
I could feel him undressing me with his eyes,
Dear god please tell me no lies,
I'm not putting any labels until I can comprehend,
For now I have a friend.