Ever wonder what else life had to offer….why do I feel stuck. I'm unable to come out of this dark hole. I've gone through so much in my life. Deception, deceit, betrayal, and lust. I've hit many lows but the one thing that keeps me sane is lust. Do you know what It feels like to lust over something you know in your heart you can't have, the feeling is exhilarating it sends signals through your body, sounds criminal, but you can't block the feelings or shake the thoughts, as though you were having an out of body experience, I see you in my thoughts, your invading my dreams, just can't seem to shake you out of my head. Bildungsroman feels like I'm going through a second birth, I feel a sexual inclination that has come over me with such force, but I have to control my urges, for I know it may get me into trouble, if only I knew then what I know now. I've had a few sexual encounters in my life more than usual I guess, for some odd reason I have been thinking about them lately, what have those experiences done for me today, what significant factor has that shaped the person I've become at this present time. Perhaps I have the inability to learn from my mistakes. Because desire is burning and taking control of my thoughts and at times my body, I desire you, I long to feel you touch me and do things to leave me yearning for more. It's amazing I can visualize the whole thing in my thoughts. It's amazing how I can have a mental orgasm just thinking of you.
Is it wrong to lust over someone who is unattainable? Probably doesn't even know you exist but nonetheless you desire them anyway….
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