Those lips

As I lay staring at the lights on the ceiling, my mind wonders off with me, I think about my lips kissing your cheak waiting for a sign of consent, the feeling that comes over me intensifies, our lips meet I want to kiss you passionalty, at some point I've lost grip of relatiy. Knowing someone could walk in and catch us exists me even more, the thoughts rushing through my mind if I could only undress you and taste you. I want to make luv to you, I try and push the thoughts away from my mind. But the more you can't have something is the more appealing it is. Loyalty is something that is hard to live by especially when I'm attractived to temptation. Although this one is strictly inticing and forbidden. Fuck your constantly In my mind I'm even dreaming of you.

Forbidden lust

I don't know why you make me feel the way you do. I can never win but this lust is a sin. Every time I see you, you make something move inside me. Recently my feeling are more and more lustful, I imagine doing all kinds of freaky shit with you, you make me feel so young, if I could preserve my youth, so I could still attract you at a certain time I'd turn you out. I'd let you see my butterfly and let you fuck the hell outta me. You seemed so experienced like you could teach me a few things. If feeling like this is wrong then I don't wanna be right, especially the way I'm feeling tonight, I'm gonna have to fuck myself thinking of you trust me that It's going to be one hell of an orgasm. You are so beautiful innocent but yet you know what you want. I'm not sure why I feel connected to you I could almost feel your soul, though its an infatuation its one I hope doesn't end!

Breaking Free

      Things have been happening so fast, It's amazing how far we've come, I can't seem to go a moment without thinking of you, you've invaded my thoughts the same way you've invaded my dreams. Your smooth chocolate skin, with your beautiful perfect smile, you've put a spell on me, I can't get you out of my system. just the thought of you I'm already sexually excited, with little knowledge I have somehow become your teacher. instead of protecting my heart I have let you in more than I thought physically possible. you make me feel so young, I don't see our age difference when I'm next to you. you're so passionate, I seldom wonder if your as innocent as your portray yourself to be. I find myself slipping away at different moments of the day and I replay the events in my mind.
       Sunday morning all was quiet at first I could hear your heart beating next to mine, our naked bodies lined against each other, with every kiss comes more passion, I can hardly resist you, my hand around your throat, with each kiss. things become more intense. you taste so sweet as I tongue fuck you and try to pleasure you I want to turn you inside out. I want you to desire me with every touch. As the feeling is reciprocated I feel like I'm in heaven. my body is weak, the room is spinning I admire your aggressive behavior, I let you take control I let you do me the way you feel comfortable. the only way you'll truly learn is to follow and feel my body's response to your smooth sexual touches, you've bought me to different heights, why I find this more special then my other sexual experiences , is because we have time to get to know each other needs and wants, and we can grow from there as a couple. So far you are right on point,  Zandi I'm not sure why you've come into my life by storm, but I do believe everything happens for a reason. The thought of finally being exclusive to one woman has never touched my mind, my attraction to woman has always been stronger than what I feel for a man. Although I love him dearly, I feel like I'm finally breaking free!

Caught in the middle

I have everything I could possibly ever want. A stable girlfriend, and a boyfriend the best of both worlds. Somehow I feel like I'm gonna have to chose one day. I mean how long can they possibly let me live like this? She is so so beautiful romantic yet shy. But sexually she has grown more aware of her needs she knows where to touch me. Her assertiveness by passes her age. She is so passionate just the touch of her arouses me she pushes me to a point I never though could happend this young chocolate tone slender yet big bootie woman has cast a spell on me. I can't stop thinking of her. She tastes so sweet I could dine her all night. Her touch masculine but her stare so feminine. I feel safe in her embrace which scares me the most. I don't trust easy but with her things come naturally.
My relationship with him has grown to extreme lengths I never realized how much he loved me. enough to sarafice he's own happiness for my own. Ive never felt a love so strong. Even if we lack intimacy which Is what I get from her. We have trust and openness no other can understand. I don't care what people say my love trio is the best relationship I've ever had. They both know about each other. What more can one possibly want. I have all that why am I not happy?????

My African Queen

I've seen you for so long, but never notice your beautiful smile, your shyness attracts me. I never thought we'd get as close as we did. You put me to sit on your lap with my legs spread out at both sides, I swear I was getting butterflies, I hadn't felt that way since grade school. I was trying to resist you as you held me in your embrace, you kissed my neck with your soft lips, your fingers traveling around my body. I didn't think you had it in you where did that shy girl go. You say your inexperienced but you seem to know exactly what you were doing. Just knowing that your saving yourself for me, that I would be your first I'm flattered I adore you more, I can't wait to see what your really about, can't wait to turn you inside out. I want your hands all over me near far and in between, for your my African queen.  

Deadly attraction

  I'm surprised she made it, I hadn't heard from her all day, yet here she was at arms reach from me. So beautiful, sensual, and yet intriguing. My attraction to her weakens me. I've learnt to just put my feelings aside. I should have sensed it, something was different about the way she moved.
 The crowd started to dissipate until it was just her and I. I could tell she had a little more to drink we were smoking the feeling was right. Just touching her soft skin I had chills all over. I leaned in for the kill I kissed her check, then I started travelling towards her lips, my mind is full of thoughts I'm trying so hard to block them out trying desperately to enjoy this moment in which I never thought would happen. She kisses me back a little more intense by the second, at that moment I had to have her she had awaken something inside me I just wanted to taste her.
 Standing near the white spread, the light from the candles reflecting onto her smooth caramel skin, with our clothes at our feet I take her into my arms kissing her as I lay her down to bed. I pour some erotica chocolate between her beast down to her navel, My tongue travels leaving no traces of chocolate behind. Her moans excite me, I can't control myself, the room is hot, I try and take my time with her, she's different.
laying down beside her caressing her in my arms, listening for her heart rate to get back to its normal tune so peaceful, until I hear the door open. I freeze I wonder what he'll say, then the thought it gone. 

 I believe in monogamy, but somehow I find it hard to believe that you can get all your needs from one person. I love him, like everyone he has his imperfections. Is it wrong to find those missing pieces in the arms of someone else? If that makes me wrong then I don't want to be right.

Who would have thought!

Seeing you today I would have never guessed the way our night would end! When I picked you up, and I saw you running, there was something inside me that sparked, I wasn't sure at that moment what all that meant but I said to myself be patient if something is meant to be it will reveal itself to you. I suddenly feel timid around you, and the strange thing is you confessed being nervous around me imagine that! I miss the moment already. I'm replaying it in my mind. I'm picturing you laying down on my bed singing to Cyndi Lauper-Time after Time. We had a moment then you kissed my arm, everything in that moment went blank, my body suddenly flushed, my sex drive on alert I don't know what's come over me, my pussy is so wet I see your lips moving no longer aware of what you're saying I just want to kiss you, at that moment I want to hold you in your my arms and feel your sweet lips. The moment passes, but not for long. As I walk you to the bus stop I'm thinking of a sweet goodbye that would leave you thinking of me. Only to my surprise you were thinking of the same thing, the night a soft drizzle but beautiful the temperature is nice, although the bus stop has a bunch of obnoxious teenage boys yelling kiss, kiss, kiss the moment was perfect with an intimate embrace and a soft kiss to my neck your lips find mine suddenly frozen in the moment picture perfect a memory so clear I'll never forget it. While we stand there a while longer planning our next venture, I notice lights from the bus approaching wishing that moment wouldn't end and with a quick kiss you were gone, and for the first time I was left speechless! Imagine this beautiful woman blew into my life like a storm, I hope she'll stay a while, because she knows how to make me smile.

Empty desires

Ever wonder what else life had to offer….why do I feel stuck. I'm unable to come out of this dark hole. I've gone through so much in my life. Deception, deceit, betrayal, and lust. I've hit many lows but the one thing that keeps me sane is lust. Do you know what It feels like to lust over something you know in your heart you can't have, the feeling is exhilarating it sends signals through your body, sounds criminal, but you can't block the feelings or shake the thoughts, as though you were having an out of body experience, I see you in my thoughts, your invading my dreams, just can't seem to shake you out of my head. Bildungsroman feels like I'm going through a second birth, I feel a sexual inclination that has come over me with such force, but I have to control my urges, for I know it may get me into trouble, if only I knew then what I know now. I've had a few sexual encounters in my life more than usual I guess, for some odd reason I have been thinking about them lately, what have those experiences done for me today, what significant factor has that shaped the person I've become at this present time. Perhaps I have the inability to learn from my mistakes. Because desire is burning and taking control of my thoughts and at times my body, I desire you, I long to feel you touch me and do things to leave me yearning for more. It's amazing I can visualize the whole thing in my thoughts. It's amazing how I can have a mental orgasm just thinking of you.

Is it wrong to lust over someone who is unattainable? Probably doesn't even know you exist but nonetheless you desire them anyway….

My darkest hour

I can't understand how you can have someone in your life, and they can't be as passionate towards you as you need them to be, I can be so sensual if given the opportunity but if I always get served with bullshit how do you expect me to be my true self around you. I feel like I'm dying inside and your oblivious to my pain, you never hear my cry, you don't feel my fears, you don't notice the life slipping out of my eyes, all I see is darkness, all I feel is pain, negativity is what fills my hunger.  I've always been alone, I've only been searching for one glimpse of happiness, the sensation of true love embracing my very soul. For some strange reason I always come up short in the end. Tell me why do I bother? I fallen so deep In despair I can't find my way back!

My Downfall

As I lay on the cold pine floor oblivious to the people around me, I let my soul run free, as I stare into the colored lights on the high ceilings, I can hear the beat of my heart, I hear the music in the background but the thought of you surpasses all that noise. I see you moving that body I could almost feel it speaking to me, with every slow movement you make its teasing me.
 In my subconscious I'm thinking of him, what Is he up to? why does he make me feel the way that I do. I imagine him working my body exploring every inch of my temple, the thought excites me, he's simply a stranger to me, why do I always have such sexual thoughts, they haunt me in my dreams.
 Is it wrong to always want to feel wanted? for someone to cater to your every need? the need constant need for pleasure!

Letting go

Its moments like this where you can sit back and analyze every scene in your life, to know which road keeps you moving forward, and which is a dead end. There are people in life that will always have an impact on you, but you have to let them go. Those are the people that hold you back, that prevent you from growing internally, and intellectually. 
  Sometimes its the sexual attraction that keeps you imprisoned. They make you feel sexually satisfied that going without, would be almost unbearable. It's amazing what we put ourselves through.
Being in control, putting your needs first, internal intimacy.

Daydreaming

I arrived at my appointment, removed my boots, sat on the chair with my feet folded up against my chest. I get called and lead into the same room as I've been in before. I lay on the table with my butterfly exposed.
She enters back in washes her hands, and greets me, I spread open my legs, she rubs some powder on my pussy before applying the hot wax, my eyes closed, my mind drifts suddenly im dreaming,  I see you laying in front of me exposing your caramelized skin, your mesmerizing eyes, I gently touch your smooth skin, I make my way down your recently waxed pussy, I feel you tense up, but really its me as the pain of the waxing intensifies, is the more I violate your body, in my mind. I long to kiss you again,  to embrace you in my arms. She's rubbing my pussy with some lotion as I come out of my thoughts. When will I have you again?.

My Goodnight Kiss

I took her hand, and pulled her towards me, placing my hand gently behind her head, a kiss not sweet but passionate, she pulled away giggling, I stared into her unique eyes, I wanted her right then and there, she leaned in to kiss me back, I feel her soft tongue touching mine, my mind dark, my body lusting for hers, she turned and walked out the door leaving me with a goodnight kiss.
When he came under the sheets touching my naked body, all I could think  about was that kiss, my soul yearning of desire for you, when he touched me I was already excited, you had got me started in away I never saw coming, I rode his dick long and hard, I was so high I didn't feel my legs,  I closed my eyes and saw your smile, I can feel your touch as I climax,  he can't hold it he explodes... As I lay in bed undressed starring out into the cold winter sky,  I wonder when will I see you smile again♥

Sexual Release

Its amazing how someone's perception can change, when under the influence of drugs and alcohol, your senses on automatic overdrive. Let me replay this sexual scene for you, a few nights back.....The room filled with scented candles, just enough light to see your smooth caramelized skin, your beautiful eyes lusting for me, your touch rough but gentle,  your bites sting, but pleasure me at the same time, the way you handle my body, holding my breasts in your hands sucking on my nipples, as I run my fingers over your body, your kiss passionate, I feel my juices warming the walls of my pussy,
As I lay you down and circling your nipples, traveling down your navel with my tongue,  I kiss the top of your clitoris, teasing it, I love the noises your making,  I slowly enter you with my tongue back and fourth, I increase the intensity,  you can't take it you want me to stop, I suck a little harder, finger fucking you I feel your body convulsing, I dont stop, I can't stop,  you holding onto the sheets, trying not to scream out,  I feel your warm juices seeping around my lips, I tongue fuck you some more, as im holding you down, I feel an orgasm coming, I try and make you hold on to it, like a surfer riding the waves, You taste so sweet, are hearts are racing, I hold onto you until I can feel your heart rate decrease, I place a kiss on your forehead, then rest my head on your pillow,  and gaze into your eyes. Instant gratification,