Changes

  Changes, it's funny how fast things can change over night, I see you in a different light, I have suppressed my thoughts of you, it is no longer a possibility that's my truth, I have no regrets, I enjoyed every moment we had together, your touch I'll miss, but my memories are mine to keep forever.
 The girl in the mirror I hope you are truly happy as you embrace your new venture.......As I am happy for you!

My fears..

Some ppl, I assume get bored with being with the same person all the time, it's not because they don't love them, it's just somethings missing, the sparks have died ,sometimes you need a little inspiration else where, like going back to school for a little refresher course, back to basic.
  I love ppl, filtrating is normal Innocent, harmless, and it's fun, I also like having sex, it depends on the day or the month, sometimes it's all I think about and other times I could care less, but a good conversation some touching, and cuddling is great,
 ppl have different needs, but when you get to experience those needs, it's self rewarding, the only problem is when you go into these meaningless encounters with your heart.
 I try my best to block my feelings, but I can't help someone falling in love with me, one particular sensitive man, your company is great, I do miss hanging out with you, that one scene in the hotel in the east, was so much fun, and then we had lunch...you are everything a girl could dream of...but you could never be mine, I'm not saying we can't have fun sometimes, and shopping although I hate it passionately, you make it fun you always have me smiling, I'm like a little school girl next to you, I can't look at you with a straight face. I'm shy, so not my character, I'm out spoken on the phone, but I do have feeling like everyone else, we will have another time of complete ecstasy.
 But now I'm developing feeling for the girl in the mirror, I'm trying hard to put them aside but there is something about her smile the way she looks at me, makes me completely uninhibited, which is uneasy with me because everything about me is always calculated, and the unknown scares me I suppose that's my greatest fear..
 I've never been rejected, or left so I don't know what that feels like, since I've been dating at 15 I've never been single, I guess it's because I'm afraid of being alone, second fear.
 my third fear is failure.
I do get bored in my relationships which is why I venture, I love the one I'm with, maybe the reason things are good now with my boyfriend, is because I can't be honest with him about my sexuality, my likes my dislikes, my sexcapades..those are the most fun!
 I think what I'm afraid of right now is that maybe she doesn't know what she wants, or maybe her feelings aren't the same, I know she's knew in this game, and we've already been together twice but it wasn't planned, but It was one of those moments I will never forget, I hope the next time although different since she's confessed to wanting a one on one thing with me, and not in an orgy setting, will be good, it will be more passionate, the desire is already intense on my part, still unsure of hers....tell me how feel?
 You asked me since when have I known I was attracted to girls, since I was fifteen, the thoughts we there I felt like I was 2 different ppl, the boys loved me, I was popular, never a dull moment, I did my crazy things as an adolescent, I don't regret anything. My first love at 13.....My first relationship or sexual encounter with a female was 11 years ago I was 22 she taught me things that I never thought possible and only then did I realise what was missing in my life, I'm happy now with myself, I have lived my fantasies out well maybe the last thing would be to sleep with two men at the same time....but other than that I'm content..All I want to know is what makes you happy? I'd love to know your response!

 

Can't shake this feeling.

  how do you do it, make me think about you, you seem to be on my mind lately, since our kiss, when I'm at work I could almost feel your presence, I think of the things we could be doing together and my body starts reacting, not the greatest thing when I'm working, then again it helps me stay calm from the BS that's really going on.
   I play the scene out in my head you'd think I was really making love to you, that I was really eating your kitty, I wanna kiss you all over,
 I want you touching me, I want you lips on mine. the moment of lust that we once shared I want it back. I want you, crazy right? tell me how you're feeling.

The girl In the mirror

when I look into your eyes,
It drives me crazy, my body electrifies,
I want to touch you up and down,
everything still not a sound,
I can almost hear your heartbeat,
kissing you mine skips a beat,
you put thoughts in my head,
I can't wait to take you to bed,
I wanna kiss your body nice and slow,
make you helpless with no where to go,
a creamed path towards your navel,
my thoughts are more than I am able,
I wanna live your fantasties,
make them your reality,
open up to me,
I want to understand you entierly,
your smile, your soul, set your spirit free,
your a Phnenomal woman to me, 

Stop and think

Just when you think things can't surprise you any longer, something comes up and you have to wonder, there are things in life that I don't dwell on, If It happens so be It, If It doesn't no sleep lost, but then something in your life just makes you stop and think for a minute, The girl In the mirror, she's a little shy but it's interesting, I love picking her mind, making her open up to me, I sense that there is so much she wants to say or experience, but she unsure of my response or reaction, but little does she know I may feel the same, the only difference is that I don't push her, I understand she was a virgin to this sort of living, so I don't want to come on to strong, but I'm up to anything she has in mind, but it's sweet I'll take it nice and slow, the feeling is much more exhilarating,
  Just feeling her lips on mine sends signals up my spine, I wanted to devourer her today, but I had to restrain myself, baby steps.....

Temptations

so let me tell you the night I had last night, I have never seen so many fine ass men in one place at the same time, I was feeling brave let me tell you cause I put myself out there, I was up on stage along with five other women one being my friend, for the first act, when I saw Mr. Fabulous come out and pick up the first girl and started touches up her pussy, I was scared, I wanted off that stage. especially after how he handled my girl, I was like damn, when it was my turn and all he did was wine up on me and give me a few back shots I was grateful, thank god I was wearing a skirt. but these men were GODS..

 It was something I made sure I stayed close to the stage so that I was able to touch each one of them, I mean I had to make sure they were really on the up and up you know:)

Then I wonder that one with the large dick how that would feel in my insides, he would tear me up, but just to have one that size filling me up, damn a girl could dream....

My Love

Tonight I'm gonna show my man just how much he means to me, I love that I could be honest with him, and that I could talk about my freaky side, but enough about that.

 I got rose peddles to spread on the bed, candles to light up the room, whipped cream and erotica chocolate for some foreplay, and a sexy lingerie, lets not forget some wine to top the evening, I'm gonna make love to him on a bed of roses, through our ups and downs, are hearts are still one.

Chain of events

The environment tranquil, small talk, more relax then the last, a chain reaction Caramel skin on top of me in the 69 position, the girl in the mirror between my legs sucking on my clit, Miss Caramel sucking on the girl in the mirrors breast, while I'm tongue fucking miss Caramel. Time is still, Mr.biggs is sitting in silence watching, while his man hood is growing, he then comes and joins the chain and is doing it doggy style to the girl in the mirror, chain remains unbroken.
 Mr. biggs is having difficultly keeping up he's intimidated by 3 beautiful black woman, but that didn't matter to me. I was able to enjoy a few hours finger fucking, tongue fucking sucking, kissing these woman, it felt great, my mind is empty, just enjoying the moment while I have it, what a night drinking tequila rose, couldn't ask for a better evening.

Text Message

So I'm at work, the day is dragging, all of the sudden I feel my phone vibrating In my pocket, I check it my heart skipps a beat, It a text from Miss Caramel skin, she wants to meet again tonight, my body warms instantly, I quickly send a text to the girl In the mirror to see If she's In, everything Is a go for tonight, what a thrill, having a secret side Is so exciting. How crazy can you be In a drop of a second? 

The girl in the mirror

So here's the thing, my only thoughts from last evening, was the way you'd look at me, what your thoughts would be towards me, I see you daily, I don't regret bringing you, I'm glad you were able to take a look into my mirror.
 Waking up this morning to your soft touch, I might have seemed like I was sleeping at first, but really I was waiting to see what you were up too, I felt your uncertainty, like something was holding you back, what was it? as soon as your fingers were travelling down my stomach ever so slowly I knew you wanted me, you don't need to feel shy around me, you can ask me anything, before the sexcapade we were friends first, now that you know a part of me, not many people know, I don't want nothing to change.

 But tell me this is there an attraction you feel towards me?

Full Blown Orgy

Wow all I have to say is what a night that was, I just got home It was out of this world, there was about 5 woman and 2 men, It was like a movie, I got in the hotel room went to shower lotion myself with Victoria secrets forbidden fantasy lotion, I thought It appropriate for the occasion, then as I came out the bathroom the first male came at me, I gave him a satisfying blow job, then the woman with the Caramel skin, came to welcome me, she kissed me all over, her lips so soft, her tongue in my mouth reaching for my tongue, then asking me what I wanted from her all I wanted was pleasure, she kissed me on my breast travelling down my navel, the spread my pussy lips with her fingers, then her tongue went to work damn just reliving it is making me cum again. what felt like eternity was so satisfying, I must have reach about 10 orgasms tonight.
 the best part was my applying the erotica chocolate beverage on her pussy and sucking it up it was blissful, I will never forget that moment, I was tipsy on straight vodka shots, smoking weed, but I remember every second as though it was replaying in my mind,
 Then male #2 came and sucked me so good, he even tossed the salad, I don't know about you but a man licking my ass feels so damn good my body was convulsing, then he slammed it in me so hard I couldn't hold myself any longer, all I feel is the Strawberry lubricant falling down my ass checks him massaging my ass then inserting his manhood in my ass I scream beyond my control I just couldn't restrain myself, it felt so good while he's fucking me I'm sucking Miss Caramel her pussy is so wet dipped in chocolate it taste so good, I have climaxed so many times, it was the best 5 hours of four play and hard core sex that I've ever experienced in my life..imagine 3 women working on you at the same time crazy pleasure,
 and to top it off Miss Caramel asked for my number she wants to see me again one on one, I told her she was a greedy bitch that she wants me all to herself, Maybe I can do something for her, who knows will see...my night was amazing...how was yours!

I wonder which outfit I should wear to my evening event, I love them both, gotta finish packing, I promise I won't leave you wondering, and tell you every detail of tonight's events, I'm getting worked up thinking about it, let me step back and take a deep breath, I'm almost ready, but before I go tell me this, what are your fantasies, what would you give to live them just once, what are you losing by trying, think about it.....

Orgy Part II

  So it's official, I have my sexy lingerie ready for tonight, I know where I'm going, taking care of my feminine things, I'm so full of excitement I'm starting to work myself up, I had to go into my box of toys, and take care of my urges, My favourite one the rabbit, it vibrates and turns,the bunny ears pressing against my clitoris, laying on my back with my legs spread out I'm turning it into circular motions, in and out I'm climaxing, just a few minutes it's so intense, my orgasm bringing chills along my spine, I feel a release, that should hold me until tonight. but regardless I'm gonna walk around with Chinese balls in my Virgina all day to intensify my insides, tighten my muscles...I exhale

A reaction

  I love it, I'm glad I can make my readers think a bit, I have some friends that were so closed minded talking about sexuality, and having relations with someone of the same sex, after reading my blog, I got them thinking differently, like maybe the thoughts were deep in there subconscious but they never dared to think, I'm glad I can think out loud for you, it's always nice to know you can have a positive affect on someone, I'm not changing who they are just simply putting a ? on the matter just to say what if.
 I have another admirer who was turned on by my posts he said it made him hard just reading what I had to say, and sent me a video of himself masturbating I wish I could have seen you cum, I would have imagined other things,but I'll leave that for another post...:) and he continued by saying  that he was turned on by this side of me,but guess what this side makes up who I really am, I don't need to hide behind my words, I prefer to vocalise my thoughts set them free....

A day in my life

Today was a regular day, same ole same ole....Until I got to my Zumba class, imagine this, a class full of different types of people,you have the sexy fit ones, the average, and the beginners, and then the instructor, wow the music is upbeat he is so sexy, everything is moving so fast but his movements in slow motion his chest pumping his clothes fitted where you can see his curves and his sex protruding through his pants, with every movement he makes it's like you can feel it...and see it growing, you could almost reach out and touch him, the sweat falling off of him..uhmm sexy chocolate..
 Then there was the vendor, selling the clothing. She was so beautiful, she was wearing a grey sports bra with a black and green jacket that was zipped half way down where you can see her stomach, her ass was tight, her skin is smooth caramel, you'd just want to kiss her all over, her hair shoulder length, I could have stared into her mezmerizing eyes all night.
 My body didn't just get a work out my thoughts were on overload..what a night

Orgy

So I get a call yesterday from a very dear friend, she informs me of a place but she'll get back to me for the time, the last time I went to an orgy, also being my first time I felt out of this world, it was something I thought of but never dreamt that I would actually have my fantasies coming true, Having just said that out loud, I exhale, the pleasure of having a woman lusting you is exhilarating.
 So quiet frankly I can't wait to be experiencing that again,
Sometimes having a way out of our everyday lives is refreshing, it gives us a piece of mind, besides most ppl think of being with other ppl while in a relationship,but I just take a time out 4 times a year and Borden my horizons, I've told my partner about these encounters so at least we have trust, He has my heart and they could have my body for that moment,
I'll be sure to write about my second encounter very soon for now I leave you with this, It's OK to think out side the box, your still normal I won't judge you. Live for today.....

Erotic massages

I've been doing some research on erotic massages, to my surprise they have a few around the city, I was wondering which hole I was living under. I never knew that, so anyways I call today to see if I can make an appointment, and the lady who answered me asked if i wanted to come right then and there i giggled, I couldnt I was at work, I wonder how I'd feel after the whole thing, I'll have to get back to you on that, when I go, I'm excited like a school girl going to her first dance, I know a bit corny but it's true, I'm hoping to be able to go next week....will see how that turns out.

Living outside my box.

Sometimes you wonder about your life, is this all there is to it, am I normal, why do my thoughts take over me? Relationships, I've had my share of ups and downs, I've had different experiences, don't get me wrong I love my men, but sometimes when I see a beautiful woman, I wonder what it would feel like to be close to her, to get to know her, and then it goes deeper sexually, imagining kissing her sweet lips, feeling her touch, smelling her perfume, wanting to make love to her, but am I brave enough to make that first step, do I tell her I find her breath taking, attractive, and that I'm attractive to woman, will she think I'm odd, and want to have nothing to do with me.