My darkest hour

I can't understand how you can have someone in your life, and they can't be as passionate towards you as you need them to be, I can be so sensual if given the opportunity but if I always get served with bullshit how do you expect me to be my true self around you. I feel like I'm dying inside and your oblivious to my pain, you never hear my cry, you don't feel my fears, you don't notice the life slipping out of my eyes, all I see is darkness, all I feel is pain, negativity is what fills my hunger.  I've always been alone, I've only been searching for one glimpse of happiness, the sensation of true love embracing my very soul. For some strange reason I always come up short in the end. Tell me why do I bother? I fallen so deep In despair I can't find my way back!